June 9/2009

Hello:

I apologize for the lack of blogs over the past month. I find that my life has been in a state of turmoil the past couple of months. I am desperately trying to fix that.

I was just informed that another friend of mine from high school has been diagnosed with the dreaded C-word. I wish this stuff would just go away. Lately I've been growing weary of the fight but I am sure I will snap out of it soon. I feel beaten right now....by an invisible enemy. An enemy who does not care whether it strikes a man, woman or child. I hate cancer with a passion.

I'm looking to move again. I am not looking forward to that either but as I sit here in what I refer to as the dungeon,(my basement apt) I know its in my best interest (health and sanity) to get out of here. Tomorrow (or later today I guess) I'm looking at a house to rent which I think I'd be much happier in. Its more expensive obviously but I think that I cannot allow my happiness for whatever time I have left, to be put on the back-burner.

On the brighter side of things.....I put a call into my local MPP's office to see if they could assist me in fast-tracking the return of my driver's license. My Oncologist wrote to the MTO on May 5th/09 stating he feels (in his professional opinion) I am competent to drive again. He also informed me of the gov't delays that I should expect. (a min. of 1-2 months for them to review it) So I'll just hurry up and wait I guess.

I'm back to not sleeping worth a hill of beans lately again. Not sure of the root cause and I can't be bothered telling the folks at the Cancer Clinic anymore because they just seem to dismiss it anymore. Don't get me wrong, I feel they do some fantastic work there and the staff are amazing...I just feel that a lot of times I'm looked upon as a formality to them when they see me, given my prognosis.

My Family Doctor put me on some "happy pills" a while ago that I think are starting to kick in. Between those and some sleeping pills....all the world will be right again! lol

Not really sure what else to add except that my next MRI will be in July.

My thoughts and prayers are always still with my 3 Cami girls and now also with Steve P.

Later

Ed

Anyways, back to the MPP....they have contacted the MTO and were given the response that my "case is too difficult for everyday staffers" so they are going to involve a Specialist of some sort to deal with it. Whatever!!! My MPP's office said they are supposed to get some more information by June 17/09 and will contact me then.